pale the moon

I don’t know what to call him…

Is he my ex husband? technically we’re still married. I dont want to call him my husband… I don’t want him anymore (as harsh as that sounds, let’s be realistic here)

Tonight we met up so he could give me my maintenance $ (its not some glamorous amount, I cant go on a shopping spree, unfortunately) and give me the divorce papers to fill out. I was curious how much he was giving me so I logged onto the bank accounts website. I no longer have my debit card, or credit card, but I can get online. I noticed that he went to the Aquarium on Saturday. So while we were eating our cheeseburgers, I asked him about it. Apparently he went on a date.

Now, I know its not fair for me to be all HOW COULD HE? When he is no longer mine to stake my claim on, and I am very much in love with someone else and have been for awhile. However, it seems a little soon and I’m trying not to take it personally or be too offended by it. He and I were together for 8 years, and I moved out 32 days ago. The only thing going through my head right now is

Am I that easy to get over?

Things I hate about having roommates:

THEY EAT MY GOD DAMN FOOD. I have a drawer in the fridge that is mine. It is designated for ME. I am broke as shit and can’t afford to be feeding a 400 pound man. When I went out to my parent’s house for dinner on sunday, my mom sent me home with a bunch of meatballs, because they are my favorite. I went to eat them today and they’re gone. They were in my drawer, in a container.

UGH I WANT MY MEATBALLS.

my special man friend applied to be on Wipeout.

hahaha what a dweeb. I pretty much love it though, it’s so something he would do.

I just want some meatballs.

and a mocha.

and some company.

healing.

It’s been 8 days since I moved out and so far I’ve made it two whole days without shedding a tear. The events of the last week have been so ridiculous, and I don’t think that they have completely hit me yet.

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